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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

I Am A Mess


We are still waiting to hear from the coroner about the cause of death, although he did say it was something Cardio Vascular. My dad was 54 he would have been 55 on December 30th. My dad has been awaiting surgery for the past few month for some clogged Arteries in his leg and groin, we were told he was in no immediate danger and as long as he took his medicine ( which he did) he would be fine. I am so happy he came to stay with us for this past month, he wasn't supposed to be here he was headed down to stay with his sister in Hope BC, but then I had car problems so he stayed to fix them, the he stayed here to watch the cats when we went up North to my Mom's, and for some reason both he and I thought he should stay here through August.

God always has a plan, the month he was here he got to spend time with the girls, strengthen our relationship, be with our cats and dogs who he adored. So I just hope he knew how much he was loved. I am thankful and grateful he was taken when things in his life were good, he was around family, and taken while he was sleeping.

My heart hurts at the thought I will never see him again, I miss him already, we would have coffee on the fronts steps in the morning together so this morning was particularly hard.

Thank you so much for all you thoughts and prayers they mean so much at this time. I am also sorry for being so blunt yesterday, I just didn't know a good way to say it.


Blogger Melissa said...

Hang in there! We are all pulling for you and your family!


August 01, 2007 9:44 AM  
Blogger Nancy said...

OMG KELLY!!!! I am SO sorry to read that you found your Dad yesterday and of his passing. My heart is with you....

August 01, 2007 9:58 AM  
Blogger Kathy W said...

Kelly, I didn't see your post yesterday; my deepest sympathies to you and your family. My dad died suddenly too, as well as my younger brother. It is shocking and traumatic. I am glad that you have had this past month with him. My heart sends hugs and prayers your way. Hold onto your family and faith.

August 01, 2007 11:32 AM  
Blogger Stamp4hobby said...

I am so very sorry for you and your family. I will be praying for you.

August 01, 2007 12:28 PM  
Blogger greetingsbydebra said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. My heart goes out to you and your family. My dad was the same age when he passed as the result of a major heart attack. It sounds like the time you spent with your dad lately was a real gift. I hope that will be a comfort to you in the sad times.

August 01, 2007 12:29 PM  
Blogger Colleen Schaan said...

Kelly, I am so sorry to read of your loss. It must have been a shock to find him. My heart goes out to you and your family during these difficult times. Keep the memories close and he will always be with you.

August 01, 2007 12:31 PM  
Blogger stampin_melissa said...

Kelly, I am so glad that your father was able to stay with you for the last month. What a special opportunity for you all. Having this time with you and the girls is a special blessing. Hugs to you all!

August 01, 2007 1:19 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad!! It is Really hard when it is so sudden!!Please know you are in my prayers,Judy

August 01, 2007 2:27 PM  
Anonymous k.m. said...

Kelly.....I am so sorry to hear the news of your father's death. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Remember the good times and they will help carry you through the difficult days ahead.

August 01, 2007 2:53 PM  
Blogger GrammaStamper (Barb) said...

Kelly, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. There was no easy way to explain your loss in your post of yesterday. My sympathies to you and your family.

August 01, 2007 2:55 PM  
Blogger Carolyn said...

Kelly, I am so sorry for your loss, I know how hard it is, especially so suddenly. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family.

August 01, 2007 3:14 PM  
Blogger bethtrue said...

Kelly - sorry about your father. My thoughts and sympathies are with you.

Beth B.

August 01, 2007 5:02 PM  
Anonymous Sue said...

I am so sorry, I am crying with you.
Sue K

August 01, 2007 6:25 PM  
Anonymous jeannine said...

Kelly, I'm so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time for you. God Bless.

August 01, 2007 6:35 PM  
Blogger chelemom said...

My heart goes out to you! You are in my prayers...

August 01, 2007 7:11 PM  
Anonymous Leslie Springer said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prays are with you.

August 01, 2007 9:08 PM  
Blogger Lois Michael said...

Kelly, there are no words to take away your sorrow but just know that there are lots of thoughts and prayers being sent to you and your family. God Bless.

August 01, 2007 9:42 PM  
Anonymous rachelM said...

So sorry to hear about your dad. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

August 01, 2007 9:51 PM  
Blogger Alli Miles said...

My deepest sympathies are with you and your family. I can't even imagine how you must feel right now. I will keep you in my prayers.

August 01, 2007 10:44 PM  
Blogger Princess Matilda said...

I can't even find words. I'm so sorry.

August 02, 2007 4:33 AM  
Blogger Cheryl said...

Kelly, please add me to the others who are sending you warm, caring, loving thoughts. Words can't express how sorry I am for what you are going thru. Take care of yourself and cherish the good times you had with your dad.
With sympathy, Cheryl Sims

August 02, 2007 5:04 AM  
Blogger Leslie said...

You and your family are in my prayers.

August 02, 2007 6:39 AM  
Blogger Rose Ann said...

Big hugs, Kelly!! You and the family are in my thoughts and prayers.

August 02, 2007 10:41 AM  
Blogger grungedandy said...

So sorry my heart goes out to you & yours loads & loads of internet hugs! :-(


August 02, 2007 11:55 AM  
Blogger Genevieve said...

Hang in there, Kelly. God does have a plan for all of us. I'm a firm believer in things happening for a reason.

August 02, 2007 1:48 PM  
Anonymous Heather said...

My heart breaks for you, you are in my prayers also.
God will help you through this.
Hugs, Heather from Alberta

August 02, 2007 4:45 PM  
Blogger Donna said...

Kelly, I'm so glad you had the quality time recently with your dad! That is something you'll cherish forever; some people don't get that before losing their loved ones because it happens more unexpectedly. I lost my dad when I was 9 (he was 47) on a Sat. morning and there were many times I just ached for him when it was time for our 'rituals' just like you having your coffee with him. You're in my thoughts & prayers for healing. Allow yourself to grieve as long as you need to.

August 03, 2007 5:26 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Hugs to you and your family during this difficult time.

August 05, 2007 7:55 PM  
Blogger Kim Ross said...

Kelly, please accept my sympathy for the loss of your dad. I lost my mom suddenly when she was 55. I hope the happy memories are fast to replace the sadness you feel.

August 12, 2007 10:03 PM  

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